Today, in our family we remember the birth date of our beloved and dear late brother who passed away early morning of Christmas Day of 2011 in an unfortunate accident. It was so heartbreaking the moment the news came and our world collapsed. I don't want to talk further about it anymore, it makes me even more fragile and weak that it was one year and three months ago. I just can't. I want to celebrate his life. Our moment together as brothers, as a family. We don't get along that much before, we fight most of the time and worst it resulted to physical fight(s). That's just a brothers rivalry or something, because after a moment or so we forgive each other and bury the hatchet. That's love!
We miss him so much more than words can say. He's gone but never forgotten and never will be. He's a part of us, one blood, one name, one family. No matter how heartbreaking it is to think that he's gone for good, we still thankful that he left us with good faith and a tight strong family.
Happy birthday bro. Please continue to watch us as we continue life. We will see each other again someday but please not now and not too soon. Guide us as we go on with our ways. Thank you for the memories. We miss you and we love you so much!
Your Family. ❤
In one of my quiet moments, I found myself staring at an object with realization about life and future. A load of random and complex thoughts just popped in with no hesitation. I even caught myself stargazing of possible scenarios in the future that I'm pretty sure I can attain with perseverance and determination. In short, a string of complicated thoughts!
First. In about 3 months time, I soon reach the age of 24 and lately with all the changes of human activity, is I guess the common age bracket to get married. Again, how can I get married at that age given the fact that I don't even have a girlfriend right now. It's been like over a year since my last relationship and it was short-lived by the way. However, my inner self spoke to me in my realization. I live in America where money come and go and how can I save if that's the case? Reality check, you can't start a family with zero bank savings, it's pretty tough to start a family imprisoned with debts and above all, it's not healthy to start a family without a secured livelihood. Where does our life supposed to end up with if there's no money on our hand? Think and think again. In the Philippines, I know people at this age already had 3 children maybe even 2 or 1 at the very least, not married, no permanent jobs, didn't finish college or even high school, and don't even own a residential house of their own, a result of unprotected sex, and the worst still depending on their parents' incomes. Pardon me, but I think it is plain stupid. Just think about it. Just think of the outcome - children - what will you give them? What will you feed them? Every children deserves a comfortable life free of depression, oppression an exploitation of the things they wanted and most importantly of the things they NEEDED the most! So, my inner self somehow taught me to initiate preparations for when the time comes, hopefully not after 40 years old, I can build a family of my own that I know I can be sure of the future, my future and my children futures.
To be able to do this, a second thought popped it. CAREER. Since graduation, I've been preparing of securing a license to join the ranks of the so-called health professionals. Nursing licensure examination. Since then and until now, I'm still in the process of chasing that goal. At some point frustrations hit me because of the long process, the pain of waiting is unbearable and appalling at the other end. However, where's the challenge if there's no twist or ups and downs, right? Challenges make you a stronger beast in the final run. All you have to do is endure. We don't cower, we conquer! Count on the will to overcome the challenge because certainly there is glory afterwards! So I developed that attitude. Patience. Perseverance. Entrust everything to God, he is bigger than our complicated lives. Trust is the keyword here! Believe! I can sense it now, success is on its way to embrace me and when that monumental scene comes, it would be such a delight. God is good. Believe that all things are possible. Right now, I'm just doing my part. Review here, review there and review every chance I get. You know, success don't come without action. Another keyword here is ACTION!
Thoughts just keep on coming in a very complex fashion. I say, I'm not worried. I started from the bottom, and here I am taking the success ladder one step and one challenge at a time. No pressures. Just live with it! Or as Nike says, "Just do it!" Or as Kobe Bryant says, "That's Mamba mentality - 'if you see me in a fight with a bear, pray for the bear!'" In short, if you see me struggling with challenges, pray for the struggles!
RobCascayan out! Good night!
In the middle of the night, I feel so calm enjoying every bit of good sleep as the clock keeps on ticking until my body got stiffened, unable to move and struggled to breath. I tried my best to at least shout to let my housemates know that there's something weird happening on me but I just can't open my mouth... the worse I cant even open my eyes. I'm not moving nor breathing but I'm half awake. Weird. One thing is I'm sure - I'm under the spell of this horrifying attack. I feel like there's someone on top of me trying to suffocate and restrain me. As the attack ceases after a minute or so there's this image of this unknown creature beside me. He's not human. He's of an elf-sized all black freak trying to stir me. After a blink of an eye the freak's gone and the last thing I knew the attack's over. Thank God. I'm still breathing. But I'm scared. Real scared.
Its not my first time. I've been fighting this attack for almost 3 years now. Yep. You read it right. Almost 3 years of sleep nightmares. I certainly don't know what causes these attacks. I don't go to sleep after eating a heavy meal so I don't see the point. Enlighten me. I need counseling. ASAP. Desperately need to know the etiology of these weird attacks. What causes it and how to prevent it from happening again.
Daring. Bold. Brave. Adventurous. Innocent yet hyper!
After swimming at Kalama Beach Park yesterday afternoon the group if cousins went to the aloha stadium to attend the much participated state fair. Games, foods and extreme rides awaits us in full swing.
The thing is the ride looks so innocent at first sight but when the moment we pulled the buckle and comfortably positioned ourselves and when the engine started to roar that's the time goosebumps started to make us feel scared! We rolled up and down in wide circles and left us hanging from above in seconds, man t'was awesome! Loud screams and shouts came out on us as we continued to enjoy the the fire ball ride. After a couple of minutes if rolling in circles I was like having a hangover from alcohol effect. Haha. But that was really cool!
Well I didnt take photos that much because unfortunately my phone's run out of battery. Stupid 4G phone it really consumes my battery so fast!
Till the next state fair!
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Summer heat is on! Time to play under the sun and of course the beach waves. Sunglasses are ready. Body boards and surf boards are set. Bikinis and board shorts are in! Of course tanning lotion ang sun block are packed. Lets get it started! Letzzzz swim!
My cousin picked me up Saturday morning at our apartment to enjoy the day.. we went to the beach the afternoon and of course the highlight of the day was the Hawaii's 50th state fair at aloha stadium (will post separate post about that).
So I went swimming and played with the cool and huge waves. Saturday was all about fun. Summer is love! Hawaii is awesome!
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So we ate lunch at the beach park and it's really a good lunch. My stomach was too full and I'd love it! Hahaha. Afterwhich we went fishing at the river connected to the rocky beach using our aunt's fishing bait!! We didn't ate the fish though because it's just for fun! Real fun! Haha. I didn't catch any fish unlike my sister who got 5 river fishes! Well, at least I've tried, yeah?
|I didn't catch that fish! My sister did. Props lang yan! Haha|
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Vox me on voxer!
In the stillness is a guy fortunate to have God as his true friend and companion in making ways to achieve grander heights and taking steps to new highways of infinite possibilities . Yeah! I am! You too. :)
Our cyber friendship turns to real life friendship. It's a good thing Mark came to the Philippines so the 3 of us can meet up and have some fun together! Indeed, we enjoyed each others company.
Nothing is impossible if you believe! Until our next meeting guys!
Summer in the Philippines is undoubtedly incomparable. As the tag line of the summer season humbly says, "PINOY SUMMER, THE BEST FOREVER!" Indeed, pinoy summer is the best ever! My friends and I went to a summer escapade at the popular municipal beach in Pagudpud, Ilocos Norte after successfully graduated with a degree of BSN. We deserved at least a bit of fun and relaxation. It's actually an overnight getaway and the best thing about it is we enjoyed the trip very much!
I love sunsets! So here you go! Enjoy!
2 more months till my big day as a student. Graduation is fast approaching. An event that I will surely dedicate to my parents and of course my late brother and the rest of my family. And few days after my graduation, I'll be packing my things for I will board the plane back to Hawaii. So to sum it up, I only have 2.5 months left in the Philippines.
There will be smiles after this storm. There will be hope. Time will heal.
Enjoy my never-before-published photos!
|Dolphin lagoon over looking the famous pacific ocean!|
|Getting ready for the spectacular show|
|Dolphins unleashes their talents! Grand opening presentation.|
|Folks watching the show|
|Now that's what you call HAPPINESS!|
|by Fingerprints Digital Studio|
I thank God for helping me to make it this far and I kept on praying that He will always be on my side until I will receive the fruit of my labor and until I'll reap what I have been sowed. That's the finest thing about life! Positive thinking at its finest. My decision to go back after my parents successfully petitioned us to migrate was far by the best decision I've ever made in my life. Far by the best!!! I know how to value education. I know how to give importance my parent's and my sibling's sacrifices for me. They knew that this is for my own good, so there's no harm in trying and pressing forward! I owe my parents and my siblings a lot especially on financial matters. I don't know how will I'm going to pay them for all my debts but my goal is to get that degree and license first in order to have a unwavering job and sooner or later I can now start paying them back. I will. That's a promise!
|Las Vegas boulevard. Bellagio Hotel and Casino.|
|The famous replica of the Eiffel Tower! Paris Hotel and Casino|
|The busy streets of STRIP. Bellagio Arch. Aria City Center.|
|This is not the Big Apple! New York New York Hotel and Casino arch!|
|Heading our way home!|